This is me.

This is me.
By:   mrfrost
Created:   2 weeks ago
Comments:   39

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This…..is who I am…

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I have hugged a tree, then cut it down to make a home.

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I have had children, to placate my vanity.

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I have indulged in alcohol, to turn down the volume.

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I have danced, when there was no music.

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I have sat in silence, while others danced.

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I have been the boots, on an endless highway. 

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I have been an endless hot piece of highway, torturing the boots of a traveler. 

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I have brought pain and misery to people that didn't deserve it. 

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I have endured pain and misery for people...that were evil. 

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I have protected people, who deserved it.

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I have provided shelter, to those that had none. 

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I have cried, when I should have laughed.

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I have laughed, while others suffered.

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I have eaten, while others starved.

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I pulled a 10 month old baby from a devastated building, only to feel them die in my arms.

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I loved my parents, when they were cruel to me.

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I loved a woman, who didn’t love me back.

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I despised a woman, who loved me, for who I am.

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I killed people, to give others the right to tell me I am a bad person.

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I killed a father, because I was told it was the right thing to do.

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I sold a car worth$30,000.00 for $250.00, because they needed a car to get to work.

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I gave money to people, that didn’t deserve it.

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I gave money to people, that didn’t want it.

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I was violent, when I should have shown peace.

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I was angry, when I should have been compassionate. 

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I showed compassion, when I should have been angry. 

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I had sex with women that wanted love, and I didn't.

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I told women that loved me, I didn’t want them.

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I prayed, when I should have acted.

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I acted, when I should have prayed.

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I tried to be a good husband, but my wife wanted me to be something I could not be.

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I loved my children, but I gave them too much.

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I was weak, when I should have been strong.

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I was aggressive when I should have been passive.

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I was passive when I should have been aggressive.

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I drank too much…..

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I trusted too much…..

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I respected too much…..

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I loved too much…..

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I gave too much…..

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I said I understand, when I didn’t.

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I understood, when I said I didn’t.

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I went left, when I should have went right.

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I went right, when I should have went left.

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I cursed a doctor, when she told me I am going to die.

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I TRUSTED in my fellow humans, when I shouldn’t have.

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I have always given, and never asked for reward.

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This is who I am...a human...flawed, full of mistakes and errors….but this is who I am. My time is coming to an end.

Love to you all. Be good to one another. We are all in the same race, no reason to not share the shoes. 

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Patrick. 

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MrFrost
1  MrFrost    2 weeks ago

CoC.

Enjoy.

 
 
pat wilson
1.1  pat wilson  replied to  MrFrost @1    2 weeks ago

You're brave to say these things.

If you're time is coming to an end I'm very sorry to hear it.

Best, Pat

 
 
MrFrost
1.1.1  MrFrost  replied to  pat wilson @1.1    2 weeks ago
You're brave to say these things.

I am no better, or worse, than any other person, that's the point. We all make choices in our lives Pat, some are right....some are not. Have always loved your posts, I appreciate your words. 

--- Patrick. 

 
 
Ed-NavDoc
1.2  Ed-NavDoc  replied to  MrFrost @1    one week ago

Excellent post. Semper Fi my friend and best wishes!

 
 
MrFrost
1.2.1  MrFrost  replied to  Ed-NavDoc @1.2    one week ago

Semper-Fi Ed! Thanks for the kind words and it's good to see ya! 

 
 
charger 383
2  charger 383    2 weeks ago

good list

 
 
Perrie Halpern R.A.
3  Perrie Halpern R.A.    2 weeks ago

Patrick,

Very Beautiful, but it leaves me with more questions than answers. 

 
 
MrFrost
3.1  MrFrost  replied to  Perrie Halpern R.A. @3    2 weeks ago

By all means, ask away. I will stay up a bit longer to cater to you. 

 
 
MrFrost
4  MrFrost    2 weeks ago

It pains me to do so, but I have to lock this until tomorrow. I will unlock this tomorrow when I can. 

Be well all. 

 
 
dave-2693993
5  dave-2693993    2 weeks ago

Peace be with you.

 
 
GregTx
6  GregTx    2 weeks ago

MrFrost, the main reason I joined NT is because I was a member of NV, and the only reason I was a member of NV is because I was a junkie of the First Read boards. I'm sorry to hear this and would miss your voice.

 
 
MrFrost
6.1  MrFrost  replied to  GregTx @6    one week ago

Thanks Greg, I will be around for a while, no worries. Be well my friend and thanks for the kind words. 

 
 
lennylynx
7  lennylynx    2 weeks ago

Wow, it won't be same here without your input, my friend, you will be greatly missed by many of us.  I wish I could comfort you with claims of an afterlife of eternal bliss awaiting you, but, obviously, cannot do so in good faith.  I will suggest reading the first chapter of the Richard Dawkins book 'Unweaving the Rainbow' where Dawkins explains, as only he can, how lucky we are to have lived at all.

 
 
JBB
8  JBB    2 weeks ago

And now the days grow short

We're in the Autumn of our years

And so we think of our lives

Like vintage wine

In fine old kegs

From the brim to the dregs

May all flow free a clear

"It is a very good year"...

 
 
MrFrost
8.1  MrFrost  replied to  JBB @8    one week ago

Great post JBB, but my wife tells me there are times she thinks I am aging like milk. winking

 
 
JBB
8.1.1  JBB  replied to  MrFrost @8.1    one week ago
"My wife tells me there are times she thinks I am aging like milk".

Your wit is like a well decanted Chateau Margaux 1953, on ice, the way I like it, to me...

Other day I got a distinct whiff of that old folk's smell. Sadly, I was all alone at the time.

 
 
Kathleen/Butterfie
9  Kathleen/Butterfie    2 weeks ago

Patrick, Very beautiful words, but wondering why you wrote them..

I will miss you for sure, and I hope nothing bad is happening. 

You have been kind to me and if you leave, there will be a huge hole that will never be filled.

Take care of yourself dear, and I am here if you need to talk.

 
 
Kathleen/Butterfie
9.1  Kathleen/Butterfie  replied to  Kathleen/Butterfie @9    2 weeks ago

( Love, Butter)

 
 
MrFrost
9.2  MrFrost  replied to  Kathleen/Butterfie @9    one week ago

That's a fair question and the answer is...I don't know. I have been vilified in the past for having a big mouth, been told I am a horrible person, etc... Guess this is my way of saying, "yea, I am not perfect, but then, I am no better or worse than anyone else"? 

Love ya too Butter! 

 
 
Kathleen/Butterfie
9.2.1  Kathleen/Butterfie  replied to  MrFrost @9.2    one week ago

Okay, I see now. Got us worried there.

Sometimes we all need to step back and take a good look at ourselves before we judge others. 

 
 
Citizen Kane-473667
10  Citizen Kane-473667    2 weeks ago

You may have beaten me to the finish line, but I will see you when I get there.

Peace be unto you my friend. You will be missed.

 
 
MrFrost
10.1  MrFrost  replied to  Citizen Kane-473667 @10    one week ago
You may have beaten me to the finish line, but I will see you when I get there.

True! None of knows what lies in the great beyond, but one this is for sure, we all get to find out. 

 
 
Phoenyx13
11  Phoenyx13    2 weeks ago

I hope everything is ok and nothing bad is going on. I enjoy your posts greatly. You've always been kind to me and i appreciate that.

Please take care and know that you are fondly thought (and loved) by many - never forget that. I wish you nothing but good blessings.

 
 
MrFrost
11.1  MrFrost  replied to  Phoenyx13 @11    one week ago

I try to be kind to everyone, but I admit that like most people, I can get steamed as well. Guess that makes me a human being after all. Thanks for the kind words! 

 
 
Enoch
12  Enoch    2 weeks ago

Dear Friend Mr. Frost: For such Pastoral Care as you need and want, I am here for you.

Use site private notes.

Then we can be in touch by personal email.

Enoch.

 
 
MrFrost
12.1  MrFrost  replied to  Enoch @12    one week ago

Thanks My Friend! 

 
 
Trout Giggles
13  Trout Giggles    2 weeks ago

Patrick, I will miss you and I hope your article doesn't mean you are going anywhere soon. You've always been one of my favorites here and I don't know what I will do without you.

 
 
MrFrost
13.1  MrFrost  replied to  Trout Giggles @13    one week ago
Patrick, I will miss you and I hope your article doesn't mean you are going anywhere soon.

It's doesn't, and I apologize for not being more clear. Thanks Trout! 

 
 
Trout Giggles
13.1.1  Trout Giggles  replied to  MrFrost @13.1    one week ago

angel

I was looking for an emoji that basically says " whew"! But this one works and I'm damn glad you're not going anywhere.

I like your honesty about yourself. You're a brave man.

 
 
Paula Bartholomew
14  Paula Bartholomew    one week ago

Safe journey Patrick, no matter what the destination may be.

 
 
Raven Wing
15  Raven Wing    one week ago

Dear Friend Patrick,

We are all connected as human beings in this life, and as such, we all experience many of the same things. No one of us is perfect, or we would not still be here in this world. There is a Native American saying; "The tragedy in life is not death, but, what we let die inside us while we are alive."

I firmly believe that you have lived a life with meaning and purpose. In life, healing does not mean the damage never existed. It simply mean that the damage no longer controls our life. 

My the Creator old you in His hands as you move toward your next steps of our own eternal journey.

nv-wa-do-hi-ya-dv (Peace) my Friend.

 
 
MrFrost
15.1  MrFrost  replied to  Raven Wing @15    one week ago

Very kind words Raven, thanks so much! 

 
 
magnoliaave
16  magnoliaave    one week ago

I understand.  Your words were truth.  Sometimes, its good to write what we, sometimes, can't verbalize.  If your journey brings you back here, I look forward to seeing "Mr. Frost"'s  post showing up.

 
 
MrFrost
16.1  MrFrost  replied to  magnoliaave @16    one week ago

Thanks Mags! I know we disagree on several subjects, but I do enjoy your posts. 

 
 
MrFrost
17  MrFrost    one week ago

I have to apologize. I seem to have given some, or most it seems, the impression that I am going to kick off any day now. Not so, (least I hope not). While yes, I do have something that will significantly shorten my life, I am not setting up reservations for a postmortem just yet. I have shared with PH what it is I have, and OSM. Other than that, I would like to keep it to myself. No, not cancer or aids or anything like that. It's genetic, and I will leave it at that. 

Again, apologies for not being more clear. 

 
 
magnoliaave
17.1  magnoliaave  replied to  MrFrost @17    one week ago

It seems some did think that, but don't apologize for living.  You are very popular and they are, probably, jumping for joy that you are still going to be here.

 
 
Citizen Kane-473667
17.2  Citizen Kane-473667  replied to  MrFrost @17    one week ago

Sooo, I might just beat ya there after all! For your sake, I hope so because as the saying goes--only the Good Die Young; and I'm going to live to be a ripe old age! Muhahahhhaaha...winking

 
 
Veronica
18  Veronica    one week ago

MrFrost,

Your words hit me hard.  I feel all of that, but your words describe it so well.  I look at my daughter every day and see her pain & anguish and feel so much guilt and regret.  

 
 
MrFrost
18.1  MrFrost  replied to  Veronica @18    one week ago

It's never too late to fix relationships with family. I had a rift with my mother that lasted for years. We finally made up and put it behind us. As the saying goes..."there is no normal life, there is just life". 

 
 
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